Change is the only constant in life. For me, it’s been both welcome and daunting, and now it’s time for another transformation. Stepping out of my comfort zone, where I’ve become too comfortable, is essential. We all face moments when we feel stuck as if nothing has changed. That’s where I find myself. I cherish living in the moment and making each one matter, yet the shifts toward something new have been absent lately. It’s time to reimagine my journey.

I recently wrote a book reflecting on my martial arts journey, achieving my third-degree black belt in Taekwondo. Initially, I viewed my goal as becoming a master and opening my school. After earning my first degree and going to college, I set that dream aside. Returning to training in my mid-twenties reignited that dream, but my perspective changed. It became about reconnecting with the essence of Taekwondo and rediscovering its true meaning.

Previously, I’ve written about consistency on my blog, Twilight Elements. Although life often challenges consistency, focusing on what truly matters reinforces its importance. This reimagined journey emphasizes consistency and a commitment to retraining, celebrating the basics.

Martial arts have been my lifeline. It has shaped my identity, and in years of neglect, I’ve felt a part of myself slipping away. I feel lost, reminiscent of a time when I felt like a shadow without substance. I sense myself drifting back there. Rising above has been my goal, yet something still feels incomplete. Stretching and throwing a few kicks brings a sense of rightness, but the joy remains elusive. I find myself questioning whether I trained for the right reasons and if my dreams were genuinely mine. However, with every kick, I feel a powerful realignment within me.

This next chapter demands structure and dedication. I am seeking my motivation, hoping to reclaim it as I retrain and revisit the things that sparked my passion. I’m tired of feeling empty; it’s time to rediscover myself, and I will. If you’ve felt this way before, you’re in the right place. May, my birth month, symbolizes rebirth and all that can emerge. I am ready… are you?